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The Awakening of John - Episode 15

That night, he decided to give it a go: “So, Bob, I tried praying at lunchtime... I guess you know that already...” The soft chuckle seemed to confirm his suspicion, “I liked it – I mean I like all your prayers in different ways, but this was definitely more relational, if not much clearer... I especially liked your impersonation of me responding...” “Yeah, I really didn’t know what to do after I’d finished my bit...” “You did fine, I thought the answer you gave yourself was pretty sound. So, what are you going to do?” “I think I’m going to follow the diversion signs, acknowledge the pothole I created and drive round it...” “Ah, different routes, same destination, nice – there’s a sermon in there for someone...” “Ha ha, yes, I know, plans, not plan. After my prayer at lunch I sat down and read my Bible for a bit. Opened it at random, actually... story of Joseph. You probably know it quite well...” “I do, I especially like the Tim Rice, Andrew Lloyd Webber version...” he b...
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The Awakening of John - Episode 14

John left the flat in a daze. He’d often worried that the plan God had for his life must have long ago been abandoned. After all, God’s plans surely couldn’t have included his sinful choices, so how could he be still on ‘the’ plan. It was confusing, but this new thought that God had plans rather that one fixed plan opened up other possibilities. He was deep in thought on this when he saw the road ahead closed sign. For a moment his mind went blank. ‘But I need to go down that road in order to get to work, therefore the road cannot be closed.’ Yet it was, and traffic was being diverted down a road that he didn’t know. He’d lived here for two years, but the only roads he had used were the one to the office car park or the one to the multi storey when he was late. Now he was being taken down a route he didn’t know. Part of his brain was asking ‘and it’s all very well them saying diverted traffic, but how do they know where I want to get to, how do I know this diversion gets me where I’m m...
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The Awakening of John - Episode 13

John had gone to sleep that night with a conflict raging inside. The answer Bob had given wasn’t an answer, but the pain he felt, the intimate knowledge of what it felt like couldn’t be ignored. At one moment he wanted to hate Bob, at the next, he wanted to share with him his deepest hurt. He fell asleep with both competing for his attention. Breakfast was an exercise in avoiding the big issues, John thought he’d divert by asking “So, Bob, you encouraged me to get to know Mubina, is that because you want me to lead her to Christ or marry her – or both?” Bob rewarded him with one of his deep voiced laughs. “Well, I reckon in different ways you could both ‘lead each other to Christ’ and as for marrying, whose decision is that?” John as usual was unprepared for the answer and the question. He stumbled, “What? I don’t understand, what do you mean we could lead each other – I’ve already...” he trailed off... “... and I guess the couple get to decide, but haven’t you already decided who th...
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The Awakening of John - Episode 12

It was much later before they were able to resume their conversation. They’d both prayed for Trev, John moved by his vulnerability and willingness to share and by Bob’s earnest praying for his peace. It raised even more questions in John’s mind, but he decided to store those for later, and as they washed up the dinner things, he said, “I guess I just don’t buy the original sin stuff. I don’t think I ever have really. I mean, I signed up to it during Alpha and baptismal classes, but deep down I never got it. Maybe that’s why I’ve struggled, maybe that means I’m not really a Christian – but if love really is to do with freedom to choose – I didn’t choose what Eve did – and nor did Claire.” He hadn’t realised how close to the surface the anger still was and surprised himself by punching the wall with his fast wrapped in a tea towel. The pain felt strangely comforting. Bob nodded in assent: “One person’s choice cursing all future generations, condemning them to futility and death, making...
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The Awakening of John - Episode 11

It was Trevor, or as Bob, and nobody else called him, Trev. He wanted to see if Bob was in as he had a question. John’s immediate response was to send him packing. He needed answers and he’d given up the possibility of spending the evening with Mubina to get them. But he remembered house-group and how Bob had reached out to include him. He invited him in. “Heh, Bob, Trev popped round to ask you a question.” Bob looked for a moment at John and smiled, nodding slightly, “come in Trev, we’re just eating pizza, want some?” John was slightly bemused at this offer since as far as he was aware, they’d just finished the last slice. “Well,” said Trevor, “I did think you were having curry, which I’m not too keen on, but if there’s some pizza going spare, that would be very kind.” John grabbed another glass, desperately looking to see how Bob handled the not curry and no-pizza-left scenario. “What toppings do you like?” Bob asked to which they all chorused “Make me one with everything” which ...
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The Awakening of John - Episode 10

 “I forgot I was supposed to be bringing pizza…” was John’s greeting to Bob as he entered the flat. “Ah, never mind, we’ve got the ingredients here, you can make me one with everything – I’ve been dying to say that all day.” “What?” asked John, bemused. “One with everything – it’s a classic – a whole sermon series in that.” Then seeing that John was still not getting it, “here, you chop the veg, I’ll make the dough. You can tell me about your day whilst we cook.” “Make me one with everything – I’ve just got it, a pizza called ‘shalom’, nice. My day was good, actually.   Surprisingly.” “Ah, I’m pleased. And was Mubina part of the goodness of the day by any chance?” “She was – we had lunch together in the park – I’m glad you encouraged me to get to know her.” “People are different when you get passed the labels, that’s part of the fun.” “Yeah… and maybe God is different when you get passed the labels too…” said John wondering if that was a step too far. Bob lau...
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The Awakening of John - Episode 9

Strangely, it seemed to John, he left the flat with his stomach churning less than normal and didn’t even get irate at the Fiat Panda that cut him up at the roundabout and then took the last place in the carpark. He glanced at his watch and had an idea. Fifteen minute later, he arrived at work with an Espresso and a milkshake and dropped in on Mubina before his newfound self-assurance leaked.  She wasn’t at her desk – he saw her further down the corridor speaking with a colleague. Embarrassed to wait, he nipped into her office and placed the milkshake on top of a hastily written note and left. He wondered if she might call him, but all his calls were the dull, work-related types and he realised that his familiar anxiety had returned, worried that he had offended Mubina or overstepped a mark. He recalled that Bob had said he understood how hard it was not to be anxious and made a mental note to ask him, realising as he did that he was both glad to have Bob around and mad at him si...
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